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The Nerd♥  Rebecca♥ 24.12.94 Shut your eyes, the truth will set sparks(: 
My silly lil biatch {♥}ZoeyWanqZuer{♥} CAUSE U LOVE ME Kapo's You are awesome for being here now, Your life is nor 60% more interesting(: Memories
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Wednesday, September 28
Cause of you I am running out of reasons to cry, we will still live on through each other, underneath your cloths there's a endless story.  Know what I miss? I miss playing the piano ,every key played a trouble flows freely away with each imaginary treble clef. I miss playing my troubles ,my burdens away through music. I know this sounds super cliche but songs are able to express one's mood if you choose the right songs and have an imagination as big as mine. *BIG SMILE**Stayed over at my dearest Louisa's place till monday then head to school together. Hanged out with Ian and fuquan the day before. These buffoons missed their last train and instead of cabbing they rather spent like 90Bucks on a chalet-.- Retarded.   HOW CUTEEEE.     Our so called "study session" FAILED. Tuesday, September 27
 Spent my entire weekend with WAIMUN. HAHAHA. Happy birthday ! Went over to her house on friday night, 12AM walked in her room with a cake. HAHA. When I was there her parents was out and there was a black out. HOW NICE. in the end fuquan had to climb the ladder fix the switch which in the end I FIXED. Must take credits HAHAHHA  showed her videos prepared by our over seas best,good friends(: Then at 1AM, the rest who dint make the video met us online Skype to wish her. Her first birthday surprise(:  Next day, She left the house early for her flea, Then I headed out get deco and everything , Waited for her to come back while all her friends came over, we waited for her to return then SURPRISED HER IN HER ROOM. Hhahahaa.        some overseas friends called on Skype too  After everything everyone left, I stayed over again. Opened presents.  THESE BALLOOONS TOOK FOREVER TO BLOW.    I know. I'm wearing Pj's thats life. Saturday, September 17
You're going down, Cause I'm waking up.  Exams.are.coming.and.I'm.not.studying. I.AM.SIMPLY.COURTING.DEATH. DO.VISIT.MY.GRAVE.MY.DEAR.FRIENDS. O's are just round the corner and I'm slacking away like a pig. Argh. I doubt any amount of studying can help me catch up with the 4 years I wasted away. Know what I detest? What I REALLY REALLY hate? People who hurt others to make themselves feel better. Does it work? Does it really? Its called being selfish and self focused. You'll end up living a life wearing a mask. Cause you can't bear the thought of showing others who you really are. You may have a billion friends but you'll always feel lonely and pathetic. You live in fear. fear of being judged when you are being just you. you'll live alone, lonely cause no one truly knows you, you live a lifeless life, cause you live life pleasing others.And the root of all this nonsensical crap is simply insecurities. But I know everyone is insecure I am? Who ain't? I think 90% of girls on this planet are insecure inside. But so what? You gonna let that insecurity in you eat you up? Let it turn you into a Lil demonic monster? Everyone is insecure. But the difference comes in from the way you handle that insecurity rooted inside. You could let it ruin you, turn you into something ugly, let it control your life, let it hurt the people around you and yourself? OR You could control ,master it, use it to your advantage, admit it face it overcome it use it to improve your weak spots. Letting it turn you into something so ugly and scary will only lead to regret.Regret when everyone leaves. Regret when you're exposed. Regret when you're alone. ARGH,change of topic now . Anyway came out of the exam hall stressed out and my dearest friends started cam-whoring. Nothing new, HAHAHAHHAA but the fun part is ME ruining their every picture! MWAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAA! I never fail to annoy them this way. Same routine "Rebecca smile leyy! SMILE PROPERLY LA! Try and look like a human for once pleaseeee! "     HAHAHA. I did smile. Till the count of three I change my face seconds before the picture is taken. Why am I so annoying! HAHHAHAHHAHAA.Now, Every time I smile in a picture, I get the comment "WOW. you look human" from my dear kylin. HOW NICE. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAA I.AM.SO.AWESOMELY.ANNOYING. HOW.DO.I.DO.IT? WHY.AM.I.SO.COOL **winks** Wednesday, September 14
The thicker applied make up, the lower her esteem. Who in this world really loves another for who they are inside. Even if there is, they've been eaten long ago by this hungry hungry world.  I look lika ALIEN In da picture ! HAHHAHAHHAAAAAAA How cute. Cutest baby girl I've ever taken a picture with. I am so tired. History test tomorrow. Just.Kill.Me.Please Stress like mad woman. Its like why study all these crap? I doubt they'll come in handy when I am a adult... I don't see adults using quadratic equations daily or even yearly. Waste of my time. If you ask me I feel that the government is filling teenagers time with school so we would cause lesser problems. No joke. Sometimes people just got to hold on. You got to fight for what you want. Treasure what you have . You think You've figured everything out, Well there's much more to life, We'll never find out life's meaning recking our brains like that ,only through living and experiencing . You see me you see everyone as a fool. But truly are we ? Are we? You dint fight for the ones you loved, And now they're gone one by one leaving,they left because you're afraid of the pain caring might cause. They left and you know you didn't try your best. Don't point your fingers at others,cause you're pointing 4 back at yourself. There are consequences to every individual choice made,consequence to the person making these decisions. Be wise with your life. Hanged out with Sarah and the rest, she's back at England now MISS HER SO MUCH ):   OUR FAIL ACT LIKE MODEL POSES ! AHHAHAHHAHHAHAA        Tuesday, September 13
Its been so long, Sometimes I wonder how will I stay strong.  I spent my day wasting away on the couch. After blogging I'm gonna burn midnight oil and STUDY. No joke dudez. Know what I hate? The stupid auto correcting that macbook has,I'm spelling it that way on purpose stop correcting me! I AM YOUR MASTER. Forgive and forget. A very commonly used phrase ,every time a friend is angry with someone we'd use this phrase. Well I do. But its easier said then don't I guess. I've been doing some soul searching on my free time recently, through my many conflicts with friends in the past I realize I've never settled them, I simply let the friendship slide no matter how long a friend they were to me or how much they meant to my heart. And then I realize I was such a avoider. That was my problem. I avoided so much I'd rather hide then fix anything. but deep in my heart I din't forgive them,the people who aint perfect, I couldn't find a heart to forgive them for being just human when I was. I use to think so much, I forced myself into learning how to read people, to try and guess what their thinking,to contemplate the people around me. How foolish was I. But sometimes not knowing is the best solution to attaining peace in the mind. I look back in regret, regret of things I've had to loose, But I had my gains to. Everyone simply grew up and move on. No point in regretting now. Cause life is not about regrets. The ex boyfriend, the old friends, they're gone and thats that. Find someone new find new friends and just don't commit the same mistakes. Although the old will never be replaced in our hearts life goes on. Went to sentosa cove (vivien's house) crashed their BBQ partyyyy~ teehee.  The night before I crashed at tasmin's place, spent the whole night at macdonald with clarence and fuquan STUDYING. WEnt back at like 6, squeezed on her TINY bed (she should sleep on the floor la) slept till it was like 3 then went shopping buy the food and all. On the train she took the most unglam pictures of me ever taken in history I swear.  look at her COOOOOOOL face, HAHAHHAHAHAA. Don't mess with me girl.All the plastic bags. #LIKAAUNTY     While shopping this 2 lazy PIGs. Forced me to push them around. FAT PEOPLE WHO ARE UNAWARE OF HOW HEAVY THEY WERE... They think they baby ,sit in trolly. Sit int roll still cam-whore TERRIBLE SIA.  LOOK AT POOOR ME PUSHING BEHIND. AWWWW, I snapped sooo many picture's of the both of them cause they're just soooo CUTEEEE together **insert a billion kezillion hearts**  I am super proud of myself for taking this picture. SUPER LOVE la. If you don't like it scram. I like. took a bus into the place. On the way the view was wicked awesome! It was a true motivation for me to study .. AHHAHAHAA   Our attempts to drag tasmin into the freezing water. WE WERE SUCCESFULL IN THE END.  I tooooook thissss! SO NICE RIGHT. HAHAHHAA. Too bad its not me *frowns**  Yes that is me, Sitting on the table eating like a greedy pig. The best place to sit, I could reach everything I craved for la.        I know we'll never be the same again. My mind says let go but my heart say's stay. Do you really want to let everything we've been through slip through ? Do you really not want to fight for this friendship? Are you really willing to let it all go? | ||
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You left me broken inside out,You tore apart My soul..My heart
Now even a thousand tears would not brinq you back to me. |
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