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The Nerd♥  Rebecca♥ 24.12.94 Shut your eyes, the truth will set sparks(: 
My silly lil biatch {♥}ZoeyWanqZuer{♥} CAUSE U LOVE ME Kapo's You are awesome for being here now, Your life is nor 60% more interesting(: Memories
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Monday, May 30
Life goes on with or without you. Time waits for no one.  Today students all over Singapore took their chinese/malay O lvl's paper. In the noon when the paper is over, I see so many zonked students on their way home with the word "STRESS" on their for heads ! BUT, I'm so proud and glad to say I DON'T TAKE CHINESE MUAHAHHAHAHAAA! I stayed home to sleeeeep~ while they were pulling their hair and face fats out of stress I'm busy home dreaming bout something special *billion hearts** Anywayys, I've gotten back my Midyear papers. I passed econs AMAZINGLY. And English too, BUT I failed math,combine humans,and I think I fail science. I'll know tomorrow. O's please come later. I'm not ready for you ): I've been studying a little bit more recently in fear of working as a road sweeper in the future. Pictures from my family dayy outing*Insert a thousand smiles and hearts** We use to have this every Saturday, but we all got busy so it stopped. But I'm glad we had one again!  Brought my beloved sunnyyyyyy to east coast YAYYYY! My lazy little baby was forced to swim and run ! Picnic by the beach (:(:(:(:   I know I look frigging fat): Been adding on alot of weight recently. I guess that happens when I laze around so much,   Trying to get sunny into the ocean is MISSION IMPOSSIBLE. I had to like carry him in. But he just swam out after going in. LAZY BABY!What's scary about caring about people is when they disappoint you or hurt you. If you don't wanna be friends I understand, cause I am fully aware of what a disappointment I am. You'll have a better life without me anyways. I'll live with it. I don't wish to be a burden nor bother. So Wish you well in life . You'll find better friends. cause I don't have what it takes to be a good friend anyways. Sunday, May 22
 When you're whole world seems to be tumbling down, & you realize the person you want there for you the most is not,treasure the ones who are. Cause they'll be the ones who won't fail you, Don't be like the people who've let you down,don't let the people who cares for you down. It ain't worth loosing everything cause of one disappointment in life. ♥♥♥ I fell and now I'll learn. I've still life to live,I'm not about to give it all up just for bad friends and bored heartbreakers. Thursday, May 19
 EXAMS IN PROGRESS. No school tomorrow YAY, Suppose to meetup with 2Pigs to study but canceled last minute, So I shall EXERCISE. Yes! I've decided I want to live a better life(: I spent half my day painting my terribly bitten tiny weeny nails bright orangy pink! AWESOME COLOUR, & I went through my past post's, my conclusion? I'm becoming an idiot. From stupid to dumb to idiot now going for moronic. When I was younger, yes I admit I'm like emo and stuff, but I at least had a life. I use to go out daily,and be happy all the time. LIKE SINCERELY HAPPY. I wont make up excuses to be alone or to go home, I would never in a million yearz hide in my room the whole Saturday, I would by hook or by crook meetup with a friend be it a guy or girl,close or not. My life in the past though a lil wild, was AWESOMELY ADVENTURE-ST. Meeting new friends! Riding on random guyz bikes! Meeting funny people hearing their stories bout their friends who died in accidents blah blah~ Maybe being wild hearing these kinda stories taught me how to treasure every single day I'm alive. Maybe having friends kept my mind of stuff. Maybe life pushed me down hard and I never got up till now. Explaining the situation I am in now. I would like to say "NO MORE! BECCA IS GONNA BE STRONG FROM TODAY ONWARDS" But I know that will just be a lie, I'll continue faking a smile tomorrow and missing someone badly in the night with tear filled eyes. But you know what? That person would never miz me back. Yes I do miss that person so very much,I admit, I honestly will never ever forget him, but I've come to accept life goes on with or without him. I dont want to look back years from now and regret allowing some guy to come into my life and ruin my childhood. I won't change over night, but I know I'll work on it bringing me one step closer to a better life, YEAAAAAA~ Monday, May 16
 Exams are coming. And life as a teenager begins. The pressure not from the exams,but from the people giving you the paper, teachers,parents,friends etc. I've never really tried hard to study, I guess its my way of coping. To not disappoint the people around me I make it seem like I didn't try so I wont have to come to accept the hardcore truth that I just can't do it. I went to Kylin's chalet recently, and as I walk pass the beach, our beach.. The beach where we sat in the night ,under the stars and the nice big round moon, my heart sank. Remembering what you told me that night breaks my heart. I guess no matter what there will always be that one person whom you will never forget no matter how much you want too. That one person you'll miss daily even if you don't see or talk to him. But life goes on, Just take whatever shit you're given and we shall then move on(: I have so much emotional crap I want to crap out here in my blog right now, about how I hate having friends sometimes, bout how I like being alone at home cause the one and only person who would ever really understand me is myself and most probably zoyi is the next closest thing. Or I could crap about how some people are just so freaking stubborn and selfish, or about how helping sucks cause that thankyou would never come to you. Or maybe I could crap more about backstabbers and liars , or or or how caring and loving people could just hurt too much? But blogging crap solves nothing. Anyways, Some snapshots, I was bored~ I thought The outfit I had on made me look like some kinda ancient girl ! HAHA People just don't know how well I hide my pain and how well I fake the smile on my face. You don't know how much you mean to me, you don't understand how serious i can get, you don't understand how serious i already am about this, they just don't know how sincere i honestly can be That I only pretend not to care so it wont hurt that much when i get disappointed.. Not talking to you breaks my heart but you will never know it. you will never know, you will never understand how much i really do love you All I crave for,all I ask for is your happiness darling(: Tuesday, May 10
 I have 4 more months till my O's arrive. Sighhhh~ Preparing my heart for the big fat juicy U's I'm gonna be getting on result day.  As the picture clearly shows my intentions . NO MORE BULLSHIT. Life's been really annoying recently with all the shit its giving me the past month till now. I don't know what to get out of it? Am I suppose to not be myself cause that just ain't working. Backstabbers should just FREAKING DIE. I mean fine, you're insecure and whatever shit you feel, but you're not the centre of everything just cause you see things through your eyeballs it dont mean the whole world is for you. You must have a great memory to be able to keep track of all the lies you're producing. 'He who is not very strong in memory should not meddle with lying.'I don't give a shit when people make up dumb rumours, or stories, nor do i give a shit when idiots let out my secrets i trusted them with. What pisses me off is when they freaking not admit what they've did when I already got like concrete evidence on their idiotic moves. Seriously man. Just put down your damn big egoistic pride and admit what you've done I'M NOT EVEN FREAKING ASKING FOR A SORRY MAN. seriously sia Now apparently I cant freaking tweet cause tweeting creates problems. WTH man. I might as well throw the damn computer away no fb no tweets. so no one would know whats going on right. I dint care so much bout whatever shit happening, but now its affecting my damn friendship which obviously crosses the line. Seriously screw up sia. One problem leading to another. When will this madness end. WHEN. Monday, May 9
If one day you are to find out your bf/gf is your cousin, would you be disgusted? If one day you are to find out your bf/gf is your cousin, would you be disgusted? | ||
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You left me broken inside out,You tore apart My soul..My heart
Now even a thousand tears would not brinq you back to me. |
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