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The Nerd♥  Rebecca♥ 24.12.94 Shut your eyes, the truth will set sparks(: 
My silly lil biatch {♥}ZoeyWanqZuer{♥} CAUSE U LOVE ME Kapo's You are awesome for being here now, Your life is nor 60% more interesting(: Memories
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Monday, February 28
Bobby McFerrin - Don't Worry Be Happy Sometimes life bring's us down, we just gotta stand up just once again.  Dear Zoyi.THIS POST IS DAMN LONG. YOU BETTER NOT BE LAZY AND READ EVERYTHING I WRITE I WILL TEST YOU THE NEXT TIME I CALL YOU.  I MISS YOU TOO(: I snap shot this like last year so one day when I miss you I'll look at this and pretend you said it , cause I know you'll RARELY say it to me(:I miss all the crap we use to do together(:  East coast, Crying Taking pictures of me eating the moon ! HAHAHAH Talking about guys breaking our hearts .Remembering our past with the guys we liked . Always being the "stupid unglam ones " in the clique together. "moving in" to the toilets ! Sneaking around at night into pub's while other's that age would be home sleeping ! Drinking till we start crying together,running around together, screaming at one another swearing together at guys who broke our hearts and then falling asleep like pig's. Taking neaoprints to anger "people" hehee!  Rotting at my house while i "prepare" HAHAHHA AHEM. DOnt need to say. Burning our textbook's after exams every year ! Remember that time? AHHAHAH!  TRYING TO COOK ON VALENTINE. Hahhaha! Causing MY date to get a bad tummy ach for a few days ! HAHHAHA Our lousy attempts TRYING to "save money" HAHAHHA! I from the bottom of my heart miss you alot . And I admit ever since you've left for Holland I din't really put in much effort to call or text you . I had a thinking, that you have moved to Holland and your life should move on together with Holland. That you should start a new there. Get a new life. Start afresh. Live the life you've described to me so many times . But after the past week I reflected alot and thought about it, Even though you are in Holland our friendship won't ever move on, It will move forward and deeper, it'll grow but I'm very sure It'll never die. The both of us just has this badluck where by we are STUCK together (: Hehe! SO FACE IT. I've imagine calls from you to be happy and cheerful telling me about your awesome new life, But when I got your call my heart broke. Both times you called I was asleep but hearing your voice woke me , Cause I could hear the sadness hidden deep in your voice. The unhappiness you're feeling. Though I can do nothing to help you feel better or be there to give you a big long hug, I can listen to you. I'll be your listening ear and help you filter out stuff! I want you to know whatever happens I will be here for you. I want you to know. There's still people around you who love you. You don't need just ONE LOVE, Cause you have friends and family's love to you too. INCLUDING MINE. If there are many kinda gold around you will you just stick and treasure one? Or would you treasure ALL the gold around you. Would you burn the other gold so you could keep one? Seeing your blog, the wounds on your wrist broke my heart. It just got my eyes all teary. Seeing you hurt yourself that way really makes me worry so much. It hurts the people who loves you. Whatever happens , I hope you won't let it affect your life too much, I hope it won't let you waste your youth,your life away. Everyone has only one life to live. Every single second should be treasured . You are a pretty ,sweet, sensitive, soft hearted, kind, understanding, loyal , independent girl though you pretend to be all strong and scary you are still that nice young fat zoyi inside . and you deserve a good clean happy life. And a guy who will love you and only you all the way , the way you'll love that guy. Though there will be hiccups here and there in your life you'll get over it like you did in the past and look back thinking "i wasted my time " (: We got through so much together. And we'll go through more in the future together. You are growing stronger through all this, And one day we'll both tell our children how our teenage life was so "colourful" ! HAHAHHA LISTEN TO THIS CUTE SONG. Don't worry so much okay hunny(: Everything will be fine. You have your whole life infront of you, Don't let one guy get you down. You're better then that okay(: I believe in you AND EVERYTHING WILL BE OKAY CAUSE I LOVE YOU! I'll always be here for you gimmi a call ANYTIME. I'll wake up I promise. for you(: Friends are forever guys are whatever. "A boyfriend can choose not to care, But a best friend has no choice but to always care , cause she's the best friend ! " I promise I'll always be here for you eh. Life still goes on no matter what. Remember how at east coast or when we got drunk we would always scream, and swear together that we'll never ever let any guy bring us down ever again that we'll never fall ! That You'll make sure I dont and I'll make sure you won't! Well don't! STAND UP! Life still goes on. Treasure your life, live life to the fullest. Stop dwelling int he past. You deserve better, better life, better love, better everything(: Monday, February 14
 So It's Valentine. And I've not been posting positive post's the past few times. SO I shall post something nice. recently I looked and reflected on my life, and I realize how much I already have and how much precious people I've actually lost. Friends who've been there whom I took for granted and lost , and friends who meant alot and stayed till now:) And today its valentine. A day you express your love to your love one. Well, I personally feel I HAVE LOVE ONES TOO(: Love one's don't necessarily have to be a boyyfriend/ girlfriend. It can be friends you love alot and friends who are there for you right(: While looking through pictures. I realize how much I miss some particular friends. But sometimes when you regret letting go of certain friendships its too late. There is nothing left to do but move on. When a friendship may seem meaningless and shallow and you're tired and ready to give up DON'T cause, It means too much and It'll be to late when you find out from your mistake. And so I here by dedicate this very special valentine post to all my dearest friends whom I LOVE *insert a billion hearty's ** And of course the most important one come's first. MY HUSBAND SUNNY*Trillion hearty's** (: SUNNY  Recently sunny's super attached to the stupid hamburger. Even when his about to sleep he brings his hamburger along and tugs it in before he sleeps-.- JEALOUS ! but never the less I LOVE THIS STUPID BOYY. Yes BOY not DOG. Cause to me his the best est boyyfriend/husband/brother/bestfriend I could ever have(: We share everything(: The same birthday, same stupidness level, same blur-ness, same clumsiness ! HAPPY VALENTINE! I promise I'll get you new dry food when you're not sick anymore hunny! EAT YOU DINNER! ZOYI  My dearest Zoyi, My yearly valentine partner ! This year felt so weird without you by my side crying with me and laughing crazily in public and gossiping bout *AHEM. HAHAHAHAA! But still HAPPY VALENTINE, I was so shock receiving the valentine call SWEETEST THANG EVER(: You're seriously AWE-SOME. Whenever I'm down I know you'll be there and I'll be there for ya, Its funny how I'm so scheming sometimes yet you can stand being around me all the time. Me and my crazy mood swings, crazy temper and super crazy un-reasonable-ness! HAHA Or maybe cause your worst?! HAHAHA But I really really appreciate and treasure this friendship like LOADS. We do share a Love-Hate friendship but that's what helps us bond i guess, ANYWAYS. I just wanna say I MISS YOU ALOT. And That I told my friends about this crazy friend I had. Come back and we'll celebrate crazily together Biatch! Tasmin.   I don't know whats the point of putting this here cause that boob don't visit my blog SO I shall not waste my time typing something she'll not know of HAHAHA! but both ways, She's awesome another Love-Hate friendship. Though she gets on my skin ,under my skin and in my skin sometimes I still LOVE her. Hahahha ! Happy valentine weirdo ! HANNAH  HAHAHAH! Another one that won't read my blog. But still I love her loads.Can't believe we started out not liking one another as much till she was FORCED to like me staying with me 24/7 ! HAHHA(: She and her stupid crazy doing's DRINKING ANTS just to get on my nerve ! HAHA But I really treasure the friendship though I GOTTA FLY THERE and she's gotta fly here for us to meet! AHHAHAA(: Happy valentine (: I miss your puppy's ! MrTAN  Another one who won't be reading my blog. HAHA! Hmm I shall send him the link and see what happens ! HAHAHThis guy is like the TOTAL opposite of me, discipline ,proper , polite, NICEEEE, respectful, SMART , and NOT LAZY ! hahahhaa! And yet his one of my bestest friend (: Hahhahaha! Whenever I'm down I know he'll be there ,same back for him. And the thing I treasure the most is the pure friendship we share, a friendship that helps us grow(: A healthy friendship in short. I'm happy we grew up together (: When you're old and wrinkly I'm gonna tell your children and wife and grandchildren ALL your stories! So better not make me angry ehh! HEHHE! Beware~ Hahhaha! Shall card him soon. HAPPY VALENTINE  My hunny's RYAN TOO! Another childhood buddy who WONT be reading my blog. But both ways his a very good friend a good brother .And I really treasure the friendship and memories we have(: PPG My dearest clique from young(: HAHAHHA! I can't forget all the crazy stayover's and surprise party's we have for each other ! all the aunty-ness , All the gossip's ! HAHAHAHA! Those were the days. Though we're all older now and dont have as much time as we did in the past for each other, You guys still mean ALOT to my heart! HAHA mushy, But its valentine?! And LOVE YOU GUYS.    My dearest KIMIKO. LOL. Kimiko. thinking back the name uh really CMI. Our childish days of quarreling over small stuff, and breakups. Chalet's ! getting drunk running around like crazy people. HAHA! such crazy times. Learning all the bad things together. Drinking smoking flirting ! toning ! Going to haunted houses /hospitals ! AHHAAAA! But we're all grown up now. memories are something we'll always keep(: MEET UP STEAMBOAT SOON. Sunday, February 6
I AM SO ANGRY SO ANGRY SO ANGRY SO SO SO SO SO ANGRY! I'm going banana's infront of my laptop MY BESTFRIEND. I shall name my laptop soon, BECAUSE ITS MY AWESOME COMPANION. Everytime i get mad? First thing laptop VENT VENT VENT. Vent all my anger out best of all NO ONE GETS HURT. Awesome. Seriously I seriously wonder. HOW ? HOW HOW HOW in the world can anyone be so freaking un-aware and oblivious. ARGH. Lesson learnt . Guys Always guys. Guys and girls can never be JUST friends apparently. Cause It just dont work that way trying is just going against the freakin mother nature? HAHAH! I guess mother nature aint to happy about having rebelious kid huh? ! WOW WOW WOW IM SO SO SO MAD, I'm so happy my blog is dead. I can vent all i want AWESOME. Yay! Seriously. GROW UP . -.- Sometimes running away hurts NOT YOU but the people around you. I dont seriously give a care in the world what you do DONT INVOLVE ME. Its non of my freaking bussiness. Dont treat me like POOOP just cause you've got issues. I'm not to be VENT ON. I'm a girl. A living girl with LIVING and I must say ALOT of emotions. And thanks for giving me this AWESOMe free ticket to the AWESOME emotional roller coaster ride while YOU happily live your AWESOME LIFE. While I lead my AWESOME life with my AWESOME emotions and PAIN you left behind. Friends can sometimes hurt to HURT MY FRIENDSHIP HEART, SO ANGRYYYYYYY! Well maybe not angry But you've made me so upset I'm numb of pain sadness and tears and obviously I'm over reacting cause I'm blinded by ANGER> ANGER YOU LEFT IN ME! Thanks! THANKS REALLLY THANKS! Appreciate everything LOVE YOU SO MUCH(: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.cant even have my freaking own private room for me to scream in and work with LIGHT IN. Cause my MOTHER has to help her FRIEND-.- Something call GET A BIGGER HOUSE MOTHER. BOTH YOUR DAUGHTERS ARE GROWING UP THEY NEED SOEMTHING CAL SPACE PERSONAL SPACE. | ||
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You left me broken inside out,You tore apart My soul..My heart
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