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The Nerd♥  Rebecca♥ 24.12.94 Shut your eyes, the truth will set sparks(: 
My silly lil biatch {♥}ZoeyWanqZuer{♥} CAUSE U LOVE ME Kapo's You are awesome for being here now, Your life is nor 60% more interesting(: Memories
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Thursday, September 30
 Changed my blog songs(: YOU LIKE! HAHHAShall post bout BULLDOGS(: LONG LONG LONG POST, IF NOT INVOLVING YOU, DON'T READ KAPO.-.- HAHAHA Some sayys a Dog would look like its owner, Or humans tend to look like their dog's. And this makes me wonder to myself if this certain person i know used to have a bulldog? HAHAHHAHAHA! Whenever this "friend" of mine say or do something a certain image come into my mind Let me elaborate more(: When you laugh at others, Saying the person is FAT & UGLY, In my mind I'm thinking, your no better? Cause you actually kinda look like THIS picture below.  One word. HUGEWhen your on the computer blogging/shooting about other's In my mind I'm thinking ,Your no better? And THIS image flows into myy mind causing me to start laughing to myself(:  Grumpy humpy face thinking of ALL the negative points of others, yet not seeing your own(:When you start getting all emotional over small stuff and sits one corner wanting attention ,Wanting us to give you special treatment and "sayang" you, I actually cannot bring myself out to show sympathy instead i laugh cause your looking like THIS:  Pathatic!Once in awhile get emotional? NORMAL. But everyday? PLEASE. We are not your parents,boyyfriends. When you get angryy and want to get involve in OTHER PEOPLE businesses thinking your so powerful to be able to solve everything! I think of a very scary monster being released to war. (The kraken is a historical monster used and created by hadis himself to destroy the First hand God's)TERRIBLE MONSTER , You'll look like THIS:  SCARY~When you get mad and start throwing temper's and starts getting REALLY grumpy and start scolding your family welling up in self pity ,I could not even argue cause i have to keep my laughter in cause your actually looking something like this:  Rotten and SPOILEDAnd yet you say I'm spoilt? I love my family though they are not perfect and I'LL BE DAMN PROUD TO EVER GET TO RUB OILMENT FOR MY MOTHER WHEN SHE GETS INJURED , I'LL VOLUNTEER AND DO IT WHOLE -HEARTED LY When you do something that causes my blood to boil, I IMAGINE YOU LIKE THIS  Cause you've hurt me so much I wonder if everything would be better off without you in my life(: You have a simple mind ,but a complicated heart cause its black. You know the limits but you intentionally cross them knowing it would hurt someone else You think the world is evil just cause you are. You know no loyalty towards your loyal friends yet lick your enemies boots. You think your a princess who deserves everything without earning it. You think your the saddest most pitiful girl on this earth's surface. You cheat and lie for your own selfish gains. You are clearly oblivious to your surroundings cause You piss every close friend you have. But I admit I'm not perfect I am a spoilt brat who never had to work for anything. I am a proud brat I am so straight forward i hurt people's feeling sometimes I am a spoilt brat that takes things for granted sometimes. I am selfish I doubt people easily I think I'm a know it all. I show favouritism towards my best friend I hold on to grudges I push the blame around BUT What i know is, I know the meaning of loyalty and limits. Because i treasure and respect my friends I've learnt to appreciate things i have I've learnt to say things in a nicer way I've learnt to share abit more I've learnt that I don't know everything I've learnt that I can't always blame others I've learnt to trust I've learnt the truth behind true happiness And the importance of friendship. I'm still not perfect but i know, I'm slowly making my way up while your STIL unknowingly stucked there. You hear no one but you. You ask fer inputs but get mad when we tell you the truth, Don't ask if you can't handle the truth. Three strong words I've been keeping in my heart for 4 years now. I HATE YOU. I know you hate me too I've finally decided to blog this out cause I'm so frustrated that i could not hold it in NO MORE. No more tears No more hatred No more unhappiness No more hurt I feel I should be saying this to your face, But I'm a COWARD i admit. I have decide to hide behind this screen to type it all out, Let it all out. You don't deserve any explanations for all the misunderstandings that you had between me or my dearestZ cause We know we have a clear conscious It is you who never asked for a clear explanation and had always jumped to your own conclusion and accused us, cutting the wound deeper In my impression your a monster cutting a wound in my heart, Each time it goes deeper you lick the blood dry sucking the life out of me, Getting stronger by slowly killing me inside out. You can continue your little charades of being the "evil character" your "shen aili" on your own as you've always said. But this is reality. Being evil has its karma as i said. You might not be at the winning end in the end. You will just loose everyone dear and precious next to you. you can have everything yet feel nothing.Without people who truly loves you for you. Everyone has limits Reflection I've been really childish. Keeping hatred in me letting it rule my life. I've been my own prisoner and it is my own fault. I've been giving advice to a friend this 4 years but not following it myself.I've been lying to myself, blinding myself with all the hatred I've kept in my heart. After this post, The childish-ness WILL end. No one can live in the past.I am sure the future will present me with many more obstacles which I've got to learn to face up bravely. Life gives you tools to mould up yourself to the person you want to be(: I'm letting everything out here, I'm freeing myself from the hatred I have kept for 4 years. I am putting it in here so that this might be a wake up call the that certain someone if she reads this which i doubt, cause its so damn long. I am Speaking the truth out of love(: "I WANNA CELEBRATE AND LIVE MY LIFE" Now i shall(: Saturday, September 25
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASMINtheCRAZY(:  This sea monkey who names her MacBook MacBeth just turned 16:) She's now a older woman! HAHAAHAA Surprise party: All the lights were turned off and the cake was brought in romantic right? HAHAHHAA  A super pretty girl brought the cake in, I know who you thinking and your right ME(: Hehehe *winks*HAHAHHAHAA  Look at her surprised face Happy sweet 16 hunny(: FOOOOOOOOOOOD   OH And there was a chocolate fondue too!  WE all love ya(:After everything headed to Sonia's to sleepover(:     I have not done my art! HELP:( DIE DIE DIEE Thursday, September 23
Been doing art! SERIOUSLY I think I'll just fail my N's. NO HOPE LEFT~ Today I almost DIED! I choked on a fish ball and started crying. It was super painful man. Fish ball so soft stuck in the throat so pain cannot breath. Saw my life flash through my mind * JOKING Picture's from Wendy's , Met the rest on Tuesday at yishun eat Wendy's . WENDY'S BURGER ROCKS!!  QiaoLing,Jiamin,Lemin, ME , Vivian,Yibin,Charlene. Lazy edit so live with it. YOUNG PUNKS(: Hahahhaha! Recently many YP's around , I enjoy seeing them Makes my day a funnier day cause i see them and I'll get a good laugh! (: As i always sayy, Seeing them act like there are durians stuck in their arm pits walking with arms that are so boneless, flying everywhere and yet they think their the kings of this world. HAHAHHAA HILARIOUS  Don't know WHICH idiot edit this HAHAHA! Yp editing skills, must be lemin! HAHHAHA YP M YPYoung punks make you puke(: YP YP wadd.  As usual, Everyone got nicely dressed up with Make-up on except me. This time Got Yibin,Charlene accompany my sloppy-ness(: hehhee Toilets are every girl's sanctuary(: I know, Zoyi looks SUPER WHITE right? HAHAHHA! Can't blame her, Thailand wadd HAHAHHA! 'Charlene,Qiaoling,Zoyi,Lemin,Jiamin,Vivian,ME,Yibin WE CONCUR THE TOILET!  "even if i cry a thousand tear you won't come back to me" What if i cried a billion tears? HeartBroken. Wednesday, September 15
Have you ever loved someone so hard you could not even breath?  AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW ,Sunny's so cute right! HAHA(: My hubby lah! well sort of? til i marry bill gate of course hehee.COME COME, Let me introduce you guys to my naughty naughty that might just one day cause my mama a heart attack(:  His super naughty i tell you. Once mama scolded him then the next day he climb onto Mama's table and shyt! HAHAHHAHAHA! And whenever Mama wanna bath him , he'll wanna bite mama, then Mama starts screaming and scolding him and he starts barking at her. IMAGINE MY LIFE! HAHA His super cute though. Sometimes when the maid wants to wake me up and I don't want to he'll bark and show his teeth at her till she leaves the room. And that explains why I'm always late fer school(:His the best seriouslyy! First thing i wanna say is. HELLO I'm alive! HAHA! So this blog shall not die too. Don't know when, Spent time with rachel. She came over we cooked oglio alio. YUMMY RIGHT  To people who say I cook terrible. RACHEL SAID ITS DELICIOUS!  BTW I watched haunted changi, with this bunch of lovely ladies(: Our so call clique from secondary 1 & 2 "kimiko Family" LAUGHS! Haunted changi DAMN SCARY LA-.- I watch til i shivered sia! And i almost cried. I dint sleep well the next few days.  Ps:// I'm wearing the purple shirt.Pj's actuallyy I was sleeping five minutes before i met them cause we met nearby my place! OKAY! Let me show you guys MAGIC(: 1. Young,pure,innocent,naive, a piece of white piece of paper. (Zoyi,ME,Yibin,Lemin,Liping,qiaoling)  2. A little more fashionable but childish,naive,dumb and short-sighted (lemin,Qiaoling,yibin,ME,Zoyi)  3. Life got kinda tough): Still naive (Qiaoling,yibin,lemin,zoyi,ME)  4. We grew up.Not 100% but improved(: (Yibin,Lemin,ME,Zoyi,KietYeen,Qiaoling)  This magic is called GROWING UP caused by reality(: In total, ITS LIFE. Been thinking about retribution. Really wondering why some people don't get her retribution..But i wonder what will my retribution be? Was the incident my retribution? Something causing so much pain till even now it hurts so much . Why did so many hurtful things happen when I was "good" ,yet i felt not as much hurt when i turned kinda "bad" ? What is this? Will everyone really get retribution? SENTOSA(: Last fridayy headed to sentosa> BUT I WAS THROWN INTO THE SEA. And worst SOME PEOPLE threw sand on my hair afterwards.  SEE ME?! I'm wearing PINK. As usual. My favourite colour wadd!(: Played a few Games. 1.Frisbee 2.soccer 3. some ball game thingyy.  The guys started throwing One another into the ocean..They ALL GOT WET in the end. HAHAHA Guys **Rolls eyes*THEN,They started saying I should be thrown too so i faster ran and hide with my friends. And then the Girls decided to start throwing people too. I hid in a corner unseen for awhile BUT THEN Got carried from behind by this bunch of TERRIBLE PEOPLE And carried all the way to sea! I like struggle damn much man And then there was SEAWEED AND LEAVES STUCK IN MY HAIR. And when i sat up in the water the first thing i said was " SO UN GLAM NO BODY WANNA MARRY ME ALREADY! SEEE LAAAAA! " I don't know why that even came out of my mouth? Seriouslyy HAHAHHAA But i was not the only one. Debra got it too. But lesser people carried her, So with lesser strength available. SHE WAS DRAGGED HAHAHHAHAA!  Evidence. Her butt tracks HAHHAHAHHAHAHAAA! Poor debra): The bathroom was a mess when i bathed. Sea weed leaves sand all over! ARGH. Worst part is I dint have extra cloths! Had to buy towel and all. WASTE MY MONEY LA. And i was sick sia! Had Many awesome sleepover's too! But i don't have pictures? SO TO BAD(: | ||
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You left me broken inside out,You tore apart My soul..My heart
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